Linda Hogan is ready to share her family’s darkest secrets.

The 51-year-old reality star appeared on Today Tuesday to discuss her new autobiography, Wrestling the Hulk: My Life Against the Ropes, which details her ex-husband’s alleged violent past. (She and pro wrestler Hulk Hogan, 57, divorced in 2008).

“[Hulk] tore my shirt. He threw lamps. He held me down on the bed with his hands around my throat during arguments, slamming doors, pounding walls,” she writes. “I was always afraid he would kill me in one of his rages.”

When anchor Matt Lauer asked Linda if her then-husband would apologize once his anger subsided, she replied, “He did not feel remorse, and to this day he’s never apologized for any of actions. That is something that scared me. I did not want to be a statistic like Nicole Simpson